Life is not perfect and there are times of valleys and mountains seasons of challenge and hope and moments where the butter falls out of the fridge as you're trying to put it back and you just lose it ... because somehow that butter not landing perfectly on the shelf is the last straw...and it's only 7am, you're cursing out loud at a tub of butter and you just know that you are seconds away from sabotaging your entire day if you don't just let go in that instance...and then divine intervention steps in to keep you from losing it, in your robe, in your kitchen, on a Tuesday morning.
It was sometime a little over a year ago that I really started to re-think my feelings on faith, I still have my questions and doubt but I also know that when I opened myself up to it, let go and started trusting in faith again some pretty incredible things started happening. Some simple, some major but mostly I allowed myself to lose control, give it up to a higher being and trust that I don't always have the answer and that's when I started to realize that I was finally feeling a peace I had been struggling to find for a long time. I'm not any kind of authority on faith and I certainly would never push my beliefs on anyone else, I know I sure as heck struggle with what it is exactly that I believe, so this isn't a post on religion per-say but it is a moment or series of what I like to think of as divine interventions and maybe this can speak to you at a time when you need it in the way it has for me.
Anyhow when I started seeking faith out again I serendipitously came across this verse... at a time when I, my family, school, friends etc. were all facing some major crossroads and the the stress, worry and anxiety were just about to take complete control of me... "Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything, Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience Gods peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." - Phillipians 4:6 NLT.
I just had happened to open my Bible and come across this reading, a year ago when things seemed so uncertain and stressful, Phillipians also happened to be the study of my small group a few months ago... and then when I could no longer make it to small group in the new year it just so happened to be the study my church was doing for the beginning of the year in January... do you think someone is trying to get a point across to me??
Well let's go back to the beginning of my post, it's 7am and it's only Tuesday and for one reason or another the anxiety of a million things has decided to boil over and come out in a full on lashing on a tub of "I can't believe it's not butter- light" Light of all things right... ? Poor butter.
Luckily I stopped myself at about the third under my breath curse word and said "Stop calm down this is NOT about the darn butter now get a hold of yourself before you completely ruin your entire day. " I'll be honest...my relationship with God has been wavering in recent weeks...but in that instant I thought all of "this"...is out of my control and I decided to give myself a moment to open up my Bible and read whatever it had in store for me...unfortunately it was in my room, in my closet and it was dark and Mr. Jones was sleeping so I opened up the computer and just typed in literally the most vague search ever "Daily Devotional Blog" no idea where it would take me just hoping it would offer some peace of mind ... and I kid you not THIS... not a link, this exact post is what popped up...
Rejoice In God
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)
And then I.lost.it.
Tears just streaming down my face. And I knew what I had to do, I had to let go, I had to trust, I had to be thankful, and stop worrying and start talking, praying, asking, and writing.
We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned,
so as to accept the life that is waiting for us.
- Divine intervention I tell ya.
XOXO- Miss V